Thought I'd update, plus it's really late and I can't sleep.

So my blood test results came in last week and turns out I'm Hypotonic and possibly pre-Diabetic.

Hypotonia is complex and selective but essentially my body is not producing and circulating blood, leaving me constantly reeling and short of breath. On bad days I need assistance to get on my feet and move around. My mom virtually has to give me the telephone every time she leaves the house because if she calls, I can't get up by myself to answer it. If I get up by myself, I run the risk of blacking out. It is virtually a blood deficiency.

My insulin levels are at 300% what is healthy, which is largely due to a diet deficient in just about everything, and pretty much food altogether. Agressive medication and diet change may reverse the effects before it becomes a permanent condition. I can't afford being diabetic, but the very limited diet isn't feeding me very much. I'm loading up on pistachios right now, but I can't survive without meals every day. A single breakfast every couple days kept me alive. I don't know how far my body will go, and right now it just isn't eating.

I'll be okay, if God is good. But I'm so hungry, and I think I'm about to lose whatever food I already had in my stomach before long, so I'm going to stop writing this journal and rest. I just want to eat.